“Howdi,” I smile as I enter the bakery this Monday afteroon. “Been to see the doctor to check up on my boob pain.” I instantly feel the need to explain why I cancelled my morning delivery of fresh buns. “How are you? Nice weather finally.”
“Hi,” Bakerman smiles at me. “I am fine. Indeed fine weather today. Took a walk along the beach. Do you have a result from the doc?”
“You have an apartment by the sea?” I look at him in amazement, discovering once again something new about my friend. “Wow.”
“Yes,” Bakerman smiles fondly. “I used to live on the black sea.”
“Wow,” for a moment my mind lingers on the joy I find each time I walk along the shoreline and for a moment forgetting the worry about my own personal health. “Probably nothing but hospital scan tomorrow. There’s no lump in any case.”
“Ok. That’s a relief,” Bakerman takes the issue seriously. “Maybe just a reaction to your period.”
“Yes probably something like that,” I do my best to brush off my worry so I turn the subject to other worries. “I’m working my ass off. Can’t wait for the au-pair to arrive. By the time the Star returns I will have a serious business again. Wish I could go for walk by sea. Last time I went was at Easter in Normandy.”
“Soon you will have time again,” Bakerman nods at me encouragingly. “Sounds great that you are busy.”
“Oh glorious quality time with kids,” I smile as my eyes glaze over remembering the good times. “It is great but this is getting too much for long term by myself.”
“Don’t worry you are tough underneath your marshmallow exterior,” Bakerman teases me.
“It should be the other way round,” I ponder a little on what he just told me a little too innocently. “Tough outside and soft within. It should.”
“Yes,” Bakerman confirms eyeing me cautiously.
“How do I reverse that?” I demand to know more.
“Practice,” Bakerman retorts. “It’s all about how you see yourself and think about things and of course behaviour.”
“Hmmm very cryptic,” I go on thinking about the subject. “So I need to stop thinking marshmallow and Tin-Man. Instead I am a chocolate chip cookie with honey inside? That way you mean? Just by how I think about myself? Ok.”
Love and general and relationships in specific are situations we are continuously evaluating. How do we react when we meet love on our path and it asks us to continue the journey together? How do we strike the right balance knowing that love can be both enormously rewarding and endlessly frustrating at the same time? And why is it so damn hard to come to a compromise? Just how much compromising is acceptable and when is it too much?
And what kind of a friend am I to the people closest to me? Who are the people of my inner circle? Friendship is a great promise and is of utmost importance in our daily lives. Because love comes and goes, jobs are found and lost, but friendships are made to last forever.
Or is it the other way round?
* Disclaimer : Any resemblance between the fictional characters in this story and any persons, living or dead, is a miracle by chance more than by choice.